Since I've got this blog...and hey I gotta put my two cents in somewhere I thought I'd comment. I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. I've been up and I've been down. I've starved myself I've excercised I've dieted I've not dieted and gone the other way. It's exhausting! It is a very tender subject for me. See I was the little girl the kids made fun of at school. I learned to be invisible because if I stood out I ran the risk of being called fat. It hurt so much that when I was in high school and thin I dropped out of the race for Homecoming Queen because I couldn't take all those eyes on me. You know whats funny about that?? I was my thinest then becuase I would only eat one meal a day and STILL people told me if I lost 5-10 more pounds I could look like a model. Never enough. I've even had my husband talk to me about it. That took two years to get over. I now am a little older and a little wiser. I have to be. I have two daughters. Here is what I've learned from all of this...
We never, in my house, tease anyone or talk about anyone who struggles with issues. Whenever it comes up I tell my kids what I've gone through and how much it hurts and how it stays with you in the tender places of your heart. It has made my kids more compasionate.
You have to love yourself or else how can anyone else be expected to.
What if you never change...can you love yourself as you are?? Start from there.
Forgive yourself. Everyone has something they struggle with! Everyone.
And lastly, use what you've gone through to make some good come out of it. I teach Childrens Church and at times have worked with the teens. Sometimes when we have our lessons on kindness we talk a little about some of the things I've gone through and let me tell you...when a kid knows that you have been there done that and know where they're coming from...well you can change the world and how others treat people.
Do I still stuggle today? Yep. But not as much as I used to. I think the "straw" was realizing how much it hurt when my own husband brought it up...and I was thin then. I told myself that I wouldn't spend one more day feeling "less then". Nope. Enough of my life had been spent on that. I now focus on the wonderful things I do have to offer. I try to be the best momma I can be. I've got three of the most terrific kiddos to show for it if I do say so myself. :) I focus on being kinder. I try to embrace life. I love to get out there and explore. I don't hide in the back anymore and I really like myself for the first time in a long time. This is an issue I feel strongly about which is why this post is sooooo long. If you've read it to the end you rock...A LOT! :) If you have a daughter..or a son..who is struggling with this. Give them a break. The world is a tough place and they will get their knocks from it. If we start to teach compassion in our own homes we can make some good changes. And lastly, look at your own self in the mirror today. Let your mind go blank for at least a minute and then say, okay. This is me and you know what...I'm pretty awesome. If we start there maybe our own daughters won't have to struggle with this as much as we have. I'm thinking that's something to work towards.
I also promise tomorrows post will be lighter and more fun!! heehee thanks for loving me anyway!! :)